Do you know this feeling? This feeling of being just like Kogepan, a cute, yet very burnt, bread.
Things have been really crazy, and now, in the middle of it all, I'm left feeling like poor Kogepan. I'm not really sure what happened...October was looking pretty manageable, then bam! Insanity. Work has been crazy busy as we've been short-staffed and seemingly endless deadlines are drowning everyone. As my co-worker cried out yesterday evening, '..... I just want my life back ....!'
For the past few weeks, every day's hours seem to fly by and I have no idea where the time goes. And then, it just feels like there's never enough time for everything. Good to be busy, not good to feel like we're just rowing around in a circle because we only have one oar. Ha.
Things just feel really endless right now, and it's not helping that I have a ton of stuff due on Thursday so it feels like a big weight on top of me. I'm hoping that after that day, I can breathe a big sigh of relief. It'd be nice to get my life back in order considering there are a lot of things coming up, too. It's totally not helping that my hormones are out of control this week (hello, weepy emotional mess), Matt ran off to Arizona for his annual (and very unfortunate) trip, and I've been feeling super homesick lately. Not sure why, maybe because things feel crazy and I miss that "stability" that only home can bring. I felt so crazed for a taste of home that I made a really bare bones/cheat version of hot and sour soup tonight with random things I had lying around. It really hit the spot in a way, but also made me more nostalgic. Whoops.
But, it's one day at a time for now and I really need to keep reminding myself. And you know, if going to USC has taught me anything, it's that you just have to keep fighting on every day, good or bad, rain or shine :) So let's not forget it! Here are some reminders: